Changes

so I have been toying with this story that started as a dream.                                                                                                                            Changes

It all started with a bright greenish flash seen world wide followed by three day aurora borealis event also seen worldwide which started on the side of the planet away from the sun. Many people in third world countries were so terrified that they killed their whole families and committed suicide of course so did some of the extremely religious in non third world countries. During the time of the aurora event a few other strange things happened, first slowly over the three days the power went out world wide. Nothing that creates power would work not solar panels not generators nothing, even batteries would not work after those three days. We heard stories from people passing through going to the city about how there was no military any more how they had all deserted to be with their families, there were stories about how people were fighting for food, medical supplies, even water, stores were raided for everything. Living in the country the way we did most of those were not a problem for us.

The Attack

This is a dream I had
I was helping a friend with a yard sale when someone stole a ice chest  I chased after the woman knowing that the meat in the in the cooler was bad I was trying to save her and anyone she  would give it to when these 4 women attacked me. after trying to fight them off I called upon two of my gods and one of my goddess' they came to me and took me over and fought through me saving me and allowing me to catch the woman before she could give the meat to other people. she screamed at me about how I chased her just because she took the cooler and a little meat I said to her "you know you really are stupid this meat is bad it was in the cooler to be thrown away anyone who ate this would get sick and probably die I didn't chase you for the stupid cooler I was trying to save your life and the lives anyone you gave it to you can keep the stupid cooler"
The Gods I called upon were
Odin to bring knowledge to the stupid lady
Thor because I was fighting a righteous battle
and
Freya the warrior Goddess and head Valkyrie

SILENT SCREAM

I sit here wondering if the sanity will ever return.
Yelling screaming but not a sound made.
I know I hear it does anyone else.
Ok maybe they don't hear it but they must feel it and what it does.
Tension, anxiety, stress, this is killing us all.
Can we fix it, should we fix it, is there a fix for it, I don't know,
all I do know is if it does not end I will have to leave.
Why because it is killing me with higher blood glucose numbers and higher blood pressure, I am having to take more anxiety meds. That is not good for anyone.  

INSOMNIA

It's 5:30 AM and once again I can not sleep. Laying in the dark silence waiting for my brain to quit going and for sleep to come.When will sleep come I wish I knew when it would happen.

Last Gasp

It started in the night with no warning, to us anyway.

We awoke to a world of white in almost white out conditions.

The world once more silent and cold.

The wet blanket lay heavy upon our world, the wet white falling so fast and thick 

at times it seemed as if we were the only ones left.

I look out today and wonder how the branches could survive with such heavy coatings on them, they lay against the trees almost pointing to the ground and yet they stay covered in the wet cold snow.

 I hope this is the last gasp of winter.

Numbers

Not a poem  which is a little different but good news my numbers are down. I have had two days which each had a number under two hundred which is really good.

Spring

Yesterday it was cold and white and everything was frozen with just bits of brown showing through. I woke this morning to the tapping of rain on my window, the frost was gone and so was the snow, it's all wet and green below. the grass has sprouted though the trees aren't budding yet, the birds have been singing and oh it's so nice  and wet out there

SNOW

Fairies feather dusting the road, trees, houses,

with soft white flakes that shimmer and dance in the wind.

The fairies have gotten stepped on by a giant with dandruff

who is roaring his anger at his itchy scalp,

leaving at least a foot of his white flaky dandruff behind on the road 

the house and all the trees.Whipping around the yard blustering up the hill. 

Finally he leaves and the silence falls, the birds begin to chirp softly 

and all is right with the world again.

WIDE AWAKE

Wide Awake
midnight and time goes so slowly
not sleeping and hours seem to pass so slow
never ending wide awake.
I turn to all the things that worked before
to bring my mind and body into sync
but still no sleep it's 3 am now 4 so I sit at my computer
knowing it's no use to try and sleep yet
Maybe later maybe at 6 I don't know.

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A Drop of Blooda

A Drop of Blood

A drop form the pinkie, 

A drop form the thumb,

one from the ring, 

then one from the index,

finally one from the middle,

 most sensitive of all.

Finished with one hand tomorrow starts the other.

The numbers are stabilizing, things are getting better but it still

hurts until I just want to sit and cry. 

Diabetes

Well it is finally official I am a diabetic I went to the er last night my blood sugar was 273 they didn't admit me but I got treated and got the official diagnosis. ER might not be the right way to go but it beats the 3 week wait for an appointment  and then another two to three week wait to have the test run. At least this way I can get them to get me in earlier to than three weeks and I won't have to wait to take the test and get the results back. so now I am off to do the research on meters, test strips, the price of metformin ect.

DIABETES

Hyper, hypo, up, and down we go,

Sleepy, energized, hot, cold, never sure which way it goes.

To high you die, to low you go out your door feet first in a body bag.

Needles, vials, needle tips,pens in orange and grey.

Click, pop, pain, ouch,.

A drop of blood 

5

4

3

2

1

Relief, it's good for now, but what about later.

And the cycle begins again.

Ok I don't usually do this I usually can interpret my own dreams but this one has me stumped  
                 I was a dragon (not sure what color and I don't think it really matters). A man came in so quietly I didn't hear him and he had two young people with him. I sniffed and knew they were vampires. He asked me to watch over the young people so I spoke with them. The male was mentally challenged ( physically 20 mentally 13), the girl had been in a wheel chair but could walk now, however she was very naive and innocent about the world and how it works, I agreed to take care of them. and then someone woke me up the dream didn't end properly it was left hanging.

So we had snow on new years eve it snowed and this came to me

SNOWING

Wild white rushing wind 

a blank stark grey canvas with dark grey branches 

and trees peeking through a streak of red cardinal

then on new years day I went outside and and this came to me 

FRESH SNOW

Sparking glinting glimmering 

fresh new fallen snow lays a powder like blanket over everything 

I feel like that one is not finished maybe more will come to me maybe not

Today I went out and got this, again it does not feel finished 

BREATHING 

Crisp clean air freezing my words and breath with every exhale 

biting my lungs with every in drawn breath making me breath in quick short bites.

Well that's it for today, enjoy leave a comment or don't.